Right now I've got this song by Diddy ft. Skylar Grey stuck in my head... "Coming Home" it's called. But I guess it's appropriate because in two days I will be.
(Yes, that's the cliff hanger for you to keep reading...)
It's Tuesday evening of Kansai Gaidai's haru yasumi (spring break), so I figured I'd write a blog of what I've been doing for the past 10 days of my life.
There's been a lot going on here, as I'm sure you've all heard by now. And I don't even know where to begin.
Though things have settled down a bit (crossing fingers) it's still surreal to be living and experiencing this situation. I never ever thought during my study abroad that a 9.0 earthquake would hit Japan, followed by a tsunami, and then followed by all sorts of radiation drama. And I never thought that it would send me home.
Last week, this situation was the only thing talked about. Ever. In classes, in the hallway, in the bathroom, outside, in the cafeteria, on the train, in the dorms, in public areas where you'd happen to run into someone you know.... just EVERYWHERE. I must've gotten at least 10 emails a day from the school telling us that things would be alright, that we'd be fine, and that we wouldn't be affected.
But then students started going home. At first it was things like being scared of earthquakes and radiation or changing majors to something completely new. Then it was the European and the Chinese governments that made their students come home. Then Obama said he highly suggested all American think about returning home. Now schools are canceling programs and forcing students to return home.
I was in Hiroshima this past weekend and returned to my dorm to see that my roommate was gone. Her school had forced her to leave. Joelle was the best roommate ever and I never even got to say goodbye. About two thirds of my dorm has gone home because of the above reasons. Most students now are going home because their schools are forcing them to. In the past week, I've seen more girls crying then I've ever seen in my life.
At first, I was surprised. This time last week, Oshkosh was really chill about the whole situation and was like 'oh yeah, you're totally fine in Japan. Don't even worry.' Friday during the day I manage to connect to WiFi in Hiroshima and I get an email saying 'yeah the whole UW System has cancelled their programs in Japan. All the UW students are coming home so you probably should too.' (In addition to Oshkosh, Whitewater, Eau Claire, and Platteville all have students studying at Kansai Gaidai. Other UW schools have students all over Japan though.)
I guess I just can't believe it. I have to come home 2 months early. I'm not even sure if I can complete my semester. Kansai Gaidai might let us finish classes online, but they're still trying to work things out. If so, it's not certain those classes will transfer back. I don't know if money will get reimbursed. I can't start classes up at any other school because it's too late in the semester.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself in Wisconsin. Sure, maybe write a song or two and find a job, but still. This wasn't supposed to happen; how is one supposed to plan something like this???
Yes, God has a plan and I know that. But at times like this, it's hard to see the plan. There's a reason that I was supposed to be in Japan for only this amount of time. I know I have to go home and I've come to terms with that. But that doesn't mean that I haven't cried about it with the rest of the girls in my dorm...
I guess it just shows that you can never make plans. Because God's always got a better one in mind. I mean, just look at this blog title. January to June in Japan. I had planned to stay in Japan until June and even based a blog title off that. But now I have to go home. Crazy, right? I've always been a believer in signs... and I just keep seeing little signs like that, things that are telling me that I have to go home, no matter how much it hurts.
So heres to the 次のページ, the next page. I doubt this one will entail earthquakes, tsunamis, and radiation that will force me to leave Wisconsin, but hey, you never know. Japan has been AMAZING and I wouldn't have traded this experience for the world. All of you fellow people my age, I really encourage you to study abroad. It's an amazing experience and you won't regret it. And all of you people not my age, go travel the world. You deserve it!
Thank you for the love, prayers, and all of your support through this whirlwind journey!! I had so much fun with this blog and I love that you all liked it! Maybe I'll start another blog someday if I ever have something entertaining to say...
I'm excited to find out where the next page of my life will take me. But I've got to say, I'm even more nervous. Days and weeks leading up to my arrival in Japan, people would ask me if I was nervous and would be so surprised to hear that I wasn't. And it's true, I wasn't one bit.
But I never thought I would be nervous to come home...
Thank you all for journeying with me to Japan. I can't say thank you enough for your love, support, and prayers. It means the world to me. Keep the people of Japan in your prayers, they need it more than you know.
I love you all and I'll see you when I get home.
CB
















